Saturday, June 20, 2009

Beginning of a journey

Tomorrow is the longest day of the year and the day I start my weight loss journey again. This has been a struggle my whole life but now I have a new goal. I want to be able to ride a bike with my son when the time comes. I need to be active for him. I want to be able to have the endurance for a long walk. Now I do realize that I have problems with my heart so exercise in the beginning will be difficult but I have never felt better than when I exercise. This is going to take a lot of hard work and this may even turn into a weight loss journal for a while. I'm ok with that. I'm also going to try to maintain my current $60/week for all meals eaten at the house as well as toiletries.
I haven't really been happy lately and my vacation helped me to realize what I need. I'm happy with most things on the outside but inside I've been fighting a real battle. I just haven't felt very kind, compassionate, or patient lately. I don't like feeling this way and it is time that I withdraw for a while and take care of me. We'll see what happens. I'm putting a weight ticker on the side of my blog to track where I'm going and my starting weight is from today, not the highest weight I've ever been.