Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Taking it all in

It's 713pm on Tuesday, March 22. I've just finished cooking brinner (my kid's request). My four year old devoured 5 pieces of sausage, 3 eggs, and cheese grits. I'm wondering how I'm going to feed him this one when he's 11 going on 17. We're chilling out after a round of gymnastics and laughing. Little one is curled up next to his dad, leg draped over him as we all watch Dora the Explorer. It's kinda beautiful and I'm glad I stopped to take it all in.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

What do you do when...?

Sometimes I need someone to be there for me. Sometimes I hate having to be the one to keep it all together. Sometimes I hate being the one with the smile on my face. Sometimes I need advice. Sometimes I just need someone to listen. Sometimes I just need someone to hold my hand and be quiet with me.
I feel a little lost lately. Like, I want to find answers but I don't even really know what the questions are. I feel like I'm just walking around in a huge circle and I want to hop off but I'm not sure how that is supposed to happen. I feel a huge calling back to my faith but I don't know how to go back to it. I've avoided it for so long and while organized religion is not necessarily for me, I do want to find a like minded, social justice motivated community of support. I miss having in depth, soul changing conversations. I miss having something to say other than "tired" when someone asks me how I am.
The truth is, I am tired. So, so tired.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Your moment of random today

I was standing by the stove tonight preparing dinner when suddenly I heard the back door open. I look up and saw a dog run into the house. Out loud I exclaim, "Oh! There's a dog in my house." I took off running to close the bedroom door where my hubby and little one were sleeping while the dog was running crazily around the house. I felt like I was stuck inside The Christmas Story.
All of a sudden a guy from the neighborhood stuck his head in the door and asked if I'd seen his dog. I said, "Yeah there's a dog in my house" so he darts in and tries to catch her. That didn't work either and she ran out of the house, through the back yard, around the front, and eventually across the creek and one street over.
Guess I've learned to shut my back door completely.